(I am participating in Marla's online book club, reading Radical by David Platt. Now for Chapter two...)
Radical with children....how?
Ann Voskamp's words on Radical echo in my mind: "How do mother's...say yes to that?"
She was reading Radical as well as Palmer Chinchen's True Religion.
I am reading Radical and Francis Chan's Crazy Love.
And all the time I am reading these...my heart is thinking, but what about my children? But in more than one way.
First, I am a single mom...raising these four children that God saw fit to bless me with. I cannot walk off to wild worlds and leave my children behind. Can I? And everyone thinks, well He would never ask you to do that, right? And everyone might probably be right. But still, it is on my mind...to pick up my cross and follow Him...wherever, whatever....that is what I want. But HOW do I do that with my four children? I am praying, as I continue reading both books, He will show me that. (And it maybe a baby step at a time. But lukewarm-never-knew-you Christianity is NOT what I want for me....OR FOR THEM!) Which brings me to the second concern about my children.
I have been focusing on instructing their heart, leading them to their need for Jesus. Bringing them to the word and praying his alive and active breath will light a fire in their souls. I will admit, I have often, daily, jumped into the behavior space. Correcting. Often. Dispairing.
And I read, from Radical: "In the Gospel God reveals the depth of our need for him. He shows us that there is absolutely nothing we can do to come to him. We can't manufacture salvation. We can't program it. We can't produce it. We can't initiate it. God has to open our eyes, set us free, overcome our evil and appease his wrath. He has to come to us." p. 32
Our salvation, my children's salvation is a "gift of God-not by works...We are saved from our sins by a free gift of grace, something that only God can do in us...But that gift of grace involves the gift of a new heart. New desires. New longings. For the first time, we want God." P. 39
THAT is what I want for my children. See, they have prayed the "sinners prayer", all of them, at one moment in their lives, driving along the way in our little mini-van. I have each of the dates written down. But, if, as David said, praying the sinner's prayer is not their step into salvation, but only "immediate and total surrender."...
HOW do you explain that to kids? Some perhaps, old enough to understand, but some not. And I think, with the great commission, to go out and DISCIPLE all nations... How do I disciple the little ones in my house, when I do not know yet, if they are a disciple? If they have a new heart?
How do you share concepts as complex as this to little children that are growing up in Christianity? With the word at the table in the morning, and chapel at school on Fridays, and prayer each day at class and each night at bed, and Sunday school and youth group and...
So that is what I am grappling with as I read Crazy Love and chapter two of Radical. How this works being a mom with children.
You do not lead us to something that you do not plan to be with us in. There is a reason for these two books in my life, in my momma life. I want what you are doing. I want to be crazy for you, radical for you and disciple my children that way. I do not know how. Where to start. I pray first that you would open my eyes to see, and open their eyes to see and desire you. That you would woo them. That, if you have not already, you would give them your gift of grace and give them a new heart. I do not know, any longer, if I know how to lead them to you. How, Lord does a child totally surrender? I surrender them to you. Lead this momma, please. I do not want to be fooled. Lead me to truth. Lead them to truth.