It has been a challenging few days....and I must admit I have not been focusing on counting it all as gifts. I have been laid low by a cold...and not out of my pajamas for two days. I have felt physically horrible and not sleeping well. My kids have been good little troopers...and caring for momma.
I have had some hard lessons this week, as well. Has not been fun, in the least bit, which for my sanguine personality is a real rub, but it has been right. And this too shall pass. I want to learn His lessons well, and embrace the mercy and grace He has for me when he shines his light on things I need to change.
It is funny that I have let myself get stressed over the fact that I am behind in the read-along of 1000 Gifts...now how silly is that! But I noticed I actually let it bother me. sigh....
On other notes this week...we had a busy, intense and fun week with the kids at school. Cowboy day, where both the Jr highers and first graders dressed up (and this momma made a horse cake...sorry no pictures), we had two book reports due (Helen Keller and Ben Franklin), duct tape day, where Nick's entire outfit was made from 8 rolls of duct tape, and school color day, where all my kids looked great in blue, yellow and white.
Being ill and confined to bed I have watched quite a few Jane Austen movies: Pride and Prejudice, Emma, Persuasion, Sense and Sensibilities and topped it off with Becoming Jane. I have so longed to wear dresses like Elizabeth Bennet in Pride and Prejudice...but I can't quite see them blending in the cubicles of work, or pushing a shopping cart around Safeway. sigh..... then I had this idea. Nightgowns! I can make EB dresses as nightgowns and who cares what I look like at home.
Such a silly, hard, mixed up few days....I will be glad when this little season is over, and I am feeling better....and time as distanced the last few days a bit.
O God, I have tasted Your goodness,
and it has both satisfied me
and made me thirsty for more.
I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace.
I am ashamed of my lack of desire.
O God, the Triune God,
I want to want You;
I long to be filled with longing;
I thirst to be made more thirsty still.
Show me Your glory, I pray,
so I may know You indeed.
Begin in mercy a new work of love within me…
Give me grace to rise
and follow You up from this misty lowland
where I have wandered so long.
In Jesus’ name. Amen.
Some would gather money Along the path of life Some would gather roses, And rest from worldly strife. But I would gather children From among the thorns of sin, I would seek an ebony curl, And a wide and toothless grin. For money cannot enter In that land of endless day ,And roses that are gathered Soon will wilt along the way. But oh, the laughing children ,As I cross the sunset sea, And the gates swing wide to heaven ,I can take them in with me! ~Author Unknown~
“God wins us, not by shouting, beating us up, or starving us into submission, but by asking for an invitation to enter.
We are loved into surrender. The more we accept that he operates out of love for us, the more we will entrust ourselves to him.
Fénelon expresses this truth beautifully: "God is not a spy looking to surprise you. He is not an enemy lurking in the shadows to hurt you. God is your Father who loves you, and wants to help you if you will but trust in His goodness."