If I could but see, could grasp and remember, that truly...this life is just the rim.... We are on the rim of eternity. Each dip and crack in my current existence, is used by Him, and just on the rim of the real to be....
I Peter 1: 3-9:
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls. "
2 Corinthians 4:17
"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
I too often forget...that this...this is not all there is. My heart aches (and rightly so) with each tear, disaster, brokenness....but not AS ONE WITH OUT HOPE.
And not as one with fear.....
Yesterday I listened to an interview of Ann Voskamp, the author of One Thousand Gifts. (the perkiness of the interviewer was a bit distracting, but don't let that keep you from Ann's words, the second video especially.).... As I listened to her speaking about fear and how God's perfect love is casting out her fear, I thought. I want THAT! I want NO FEAR. I want complete trust.
I am on the journey, but do not feel I have yet attained that. And the trials I see, not mine necessarily, but the ones I see in the world, do not look "light"...
But then I shift my perspective that I am on the rim....the rim of eternity...so close to slipping into the bowl of heaven. And with that light, God's light, I get that. Caught by Him, I am safe. Trust. My children are safe, because, see, each and everyone has personally accepted the gift of salvation...so come what may...they are eternally safe.
And my heart aches...for the so many who do not know, or do not see, or do not want.... my heart aches. I ache over the tragedy of lives lost, but tell me, how much do I truly ache over the tragedy of eternities lost? How much?
So, I am seeing my fear being traded for passion. His perfect love casts out fear, and replaces it with passion. Life on the rim is not easy, Our God does not always do things as we would do them, but He is wise and... it is just the rim.
Jesus said to them, “Does this offend you?.... “You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve. Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.
O God, I have tasted Your goodness,
and it has both satisfied me
and made me thirsty for more.
I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace.
I am ashamed of my lack of desire.
O God, the Triune God,
I want to want You;
I long to be filled with longing;
I thirst to be made more thirsty still.
Show me Your glory, I pray,
so I may know You indeed.
Begin in mercy a new work of love within me…
Give me grace to rise
and follow You up from this misty lowland
where I have wandered so long.
In Jesus’ name. Amen.
Some would gather money Along the path of life Some would gather roses, And rest from worldly strife. But I would gather children From among the thorns of sin, I would seek an ebony curl, And a wide and toothless grin. For money cannot enter In that land of endless day ,And roses that are gathered Soon will wilt along the way. But oh, the laughing children ,As I cross the sunset sea, And the gates swing wide to heaven ,I can take them in with me! ~Author Unknown~
“God wins us, not by shouting, beating us up, or starving us into submission, but by asking for an invitation to enter.
We are loved into surrender. The more we accept that he operates out of love for us, the more we will entrust ourselves to him.
Fénelon expresses this truth beautifully: "God is not a spy looking to surprise you. He is not an enemy lurking in the shadows to hurt you. God is your Father who loves you, and wants to help you if you will but trust in His goodness."