Showing posts with label broken. Show all posts
Showing posts with label broken. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

something's broken

A year or more ago, I read a line by Ann Voskamp that echoed me so much, that for a long time I had it on my side bar.   It read: "I am a broken momma, of broken children".

I knew I was broken.  {still am}   I was struggling so with the impact of my brokenness.  At the time, though, it was a new thought to consider my children broken.  After all, they all had backgrounds that could easily cause brokenness, and they all had me for a momma, that could easily cause brokenness..and together with me, we are all living after THE FALL, which is a world of brokenness.


and God loves us.   brokenness and all.


from time to time i forget that we are all broken.


i get judgemental of this person's choices, or life style or ways.  i think, they are a christian, they are a leader....they SHOULD NOT do this or that....

last night, my son and i were discussing a perceived misbehavior of someone we both knew....and after i complained about it, my son said: "Mom, he's just human."

ah...yes..he is.  human broken...just like me...

and our brokenness is being tended by Christ, for those who accept his loving balm.  the wounds, the cracks, filled in with grace and love.    but still broken.

and some times we try really hard to look like we aren't broken.  maybe we did not realize that we are still broken people, in a broken world.   and expect the rescue saving of Christ to presto, instantly mend the brokenness.

but it just ain't so.

he does instantly give us his life..but the brokenness of our soul and body is mended slowly, over time,  and not fully, this side of heaven.

so earlier today, I read Ann again, and her new worlds helped me resolve some judgement I was carrying around about a couple other folks.  Ann said:

"if the broken would just love the broken — this might free us all from the chains of rejection."



yes..we are all broken.  and let's just love the broken, realizing it is all of us.  it is letting ourselves and everyone else off the hook of perfection expectations.   Ann goes on to say:

 "God’s putting together all the pieces of the puzzle and He’ll fill what’s still missing with His peace."

yes.  he fills in our brokenness with himself.  he gives peace in the middle of brokenness. 

another friend shared a short passage from a novel she is reading by Beverly Lewis that said:

{{{What if we simply made it our heart's work to pray more and judge less?"}}}

and I thought..yes...yes.  how about that.  pray about those things I was judge and disliking...rather then complaining about them.

our brokenness needs prayers....not complaints

Read Anns wonderful thoughts here: Because  we all have these days: when we are just hanging on by a string.




Monday, November 09, 2009

Perplexed...


This is what I feel like today. That my burden has me bent. With my heart aching and my mind perplexed....
And this is what came to my soul.
God is working. As He speaks in a quiet whisper, he most often works in a seemingly invisible process. Love takes time. Healing takes time. Change takes time.
I realize that (so much in my self) and how much more do I realize that in my child. God does not give us a consequence...a grand consequence, and then expect {POOF!} we never fail again.
So why do we {others} expect that of a child?
God does not show us, or tell us, of our sin and then expect us to alone solve it, break free and remember never to do it.
So why do we {others} expect that of a child?
A young child?
A child who has come from the hard places (as Dr. Kathy Purvis, calls it), who does not even know why they are feeling what they are feeling, or why they do not feel {remorse} what you want them to feel.
Yet, the "solution" presented, {demanded} is fix it {fix her} NOW or keep her away from here. She does not fit in our classroom. She does not fit in our school. She does not fit in our rules. And if she will not fit, then we cannot wait. DO SOMETHING!!!
But see, I cannot DO SOMETHING the way you expect me to do something.
The something is slow and small and moment by moment and takes time and patience and is filled with hugs and love and forgiveness. Not filled with consequences, and punishment and suspension and impatient, disappointed frowns.
Do you demand a crippled man to walk!!!??? Walk or stay home??!!!!
Do you demand a blind man to see!!!??? Look or stay home??!!!
Yet, you demand a broken heart to behave. Behave or stay home....
And all of this, all of this, all of this...for the horrendous, unforgivable sin of throwing a rock. ?? More than once, yes, but still....for throwing a rock?????!!!
But I told you not to throw rocks. {I told you not to sin}
the last time you threw a rock, I made you stay home. {the last time you sinned, I sent you away?}
And now, look you have thrown a rock again??!!! What ever will I do with you? And you don't even act sorry about it!! {And look, you sinned again??!! Whatever will I do? And you don't even act like you are sorry about your sin!}
Something about this does not feel right.